Making Moves

There are so many things in life to juggle the questions are; are you juggling, or are you failing? I have not written in a while because I was failing to juggle my life. I was failing to successfully do everything I needed to do for my family. But failing is okay thou, failing in my definition means; I did everything in my power to succeed but did a few things wrong. Now I know, those things that were done wrong the first time, can be done the right way the next time. And some of those things are simply out of my power, and I need to allow God to push me in the right direction.

So many of us do too much and never realize that sometimes we are just not that powerful. That happens to be myself, I had WAY TOO MUCH on my plate and if I had just asked for more help, I could have accomplished more. Many may know, my son has had some health issues this past year and unfortunately, we had to take drastic measures to help him. My kids are my life and no matter what, I know I’m doing everything in my power to heal them. He has some issues involving gut flora and absorbing nutrients. Which from that, basically affects his entire body. That being said, he has gone through hell and back. Sorry to curse, but I’m a bit frustrated.

Being frustrated is okay thou, feeling not like yourself is also okay for a short period. I’m feeling every bit of everything at this point. But and yes there is a but, you can have all these feelings in life and ether let it truly get to you or move through it. In this situation, I had let things get to me for a little while because I felt, I was going to lose my son. He almost died from a simple virus and became septic while in the hospital, he was also minutes away from a feeding tube. He is only 2 years old, how could this be happening to his body, what did I do wrong as a mother? Those are the two questions that repeated in my head over and over again, and I couldn’t accept that this was happening. Once I accepted this was happening, I started to help figure out how I can help him. Once that process started in my head, I not only accepted he was sick but also become more aware of things around him that could be possibly making sick.

This story isn’t to teach you how I’m going to get my son healthy again, its to teach you that when you move through the problem, your thoughts can become more clear. And no, I do not have everything figured out yet for our son, but I’m doing everything in my power to do so. If you allow your emotions to take over your life, your never going to succeed. There is A LOT in my life that still isn’t right, from my son's health too financial debt and much more, but what counts is that I’m not sitting here stating “well what if” instead, I’m making moves. I’m removing our family, from our home to get our son into a healthier environment, in hopes that it will drastically help him. And to be honest, even if it helps him a small amount, the drastic move was worth it. Make moves, stop repeating “WHAT IF”, start repeating “LET'S DO IT”.

Making moves through rebuilding the mind.